(122.5 pounds)
yesterday went badly. pasta and ritz crackers with they boy.
then today. i was so fucking sick. violent coughing. fever. worst headache ever. so i had some cereal 110 calories. then i took four ibuprofen and went to bed. i slept for five hours. then woke up. had a granola bar. 190 calories. some snacks later; cereal+wheat thins= 275 calories. then subway for dinner. 450 calories.
subwayyy. ^^^^ it was delicious though.im going to justify that with being sick. but justification doesnt stop me from gaining weigh. *sigh*
i was finally getting skinny. i just cant do it can i?
fuck.
and all next week are exams. which means stress eating. yay.
im only doing ab work today. my throbbing head doesnt agree with cardio tonight.
getting pretty far with my picture. so far i only have like 3/5 sketched out. then i have to paint it. i hope he likes it. i shouldnt like him. i have a boyfriend. but hes so cuteeee.
not the clearest picture. but this is where i am. its still pretty rough. but this is were i am.
tomorrow will be better i promise. i'll sleep. shower. paint. and study.
see, no time for food. mandagin girl. you keep me inspired. thank you so much. i would be no where without you. :)
i love Death Cab For Cutie. its so lovely. and so fucking sad.
"What's the point of holding onto what never gets used?
Other than a sick desire for self-abuse.
And I try not to worry, but you've got me terrified.
It's like you're in some kind of hurry to say goodbye"
"I'm starting to feel
We stayed together out of fear of dying alone
I've been slipping through the years
My old clothes don't fit like they once did
So they hang like ghosts of the people I've been"
they them out. currently im in love with their album "Narrow Stairs".
im gonna sleep on the couch tonight. cuddle up with tons of blankets and pillows and watch tv till i sleep. :)
night ladies.
and i see i have a new follower. thank you. :)
it means a lot to know i have all of you lovely people reading my thoughts.
loveeee youuuu.
get well soon!!
ReplyDeletethat picture is looking amazing. the fact that you can draw what you see so well makes me think you would rock at still life, have you tried it?
and haha we get the same thing at Subway! 6in wheat veggie delite :) when i worked there i learned you can ask them to pull the bread out of the middle of the bread and it takes about 100 cals off!
good luck, girl!
i love love love death cab! subway is good too.
ReplyDeleteyou're hot, i'm jealous.
xxx v
im starting love death cab. hope you get better! that picture is awesome so far!
ReplyDeletestay lovely. <3