In our age, self-indulgence and self-destruction, rather than self-sacrifice, are the foundations for new heroic myths.

today started off awesome as fuck.

but then i realized that tomorrow is the start of no junk food march, and i kinda paniced. so i sorta, but only sort of, stuffed my face. i had a crunch wrap supreme from taco bell, i had a snickers, some gummy bears, some cheeze its. haha. but today was not that bad.

and tomorrow will be AWESOMEEE.
i've got my girl mandagin backing me up.
and Eager Enid :)
and all you other lovely ladies. much love to you.

im getting a y membership tomorrow.

and i did start ABC today. but im sure i went over 500. but im going to continue doing it, and i will actually meet my limit.

for me being five foot five, how much would i have to weigh to be a size two?
if im roughly a size four/five now.
115 pounds? lower? i honestly have no clue.

im so tired. and im not very sad. yesterday i was soooo sad. with that whole tyler thing. but i needed to know. and now i have no hope. so it hurts so much less.
:)
kinda a sad thought, but hey.

dude. i've been pooping a lot. which is good i suppose. i feel like all the lax the other night kicked my body back into normal gear.

so im getting my Y membership tomorrow... but im not sure if im going tomorrow. im so scared to work out in public! haha.

i will be 118 by the end of march! i can do it!
also, my mom comes home from jail in like 15 days. which is exciting. shes been gone since late september. drunk driving. third offense. lame.

its getting late. i have home work, and i wanna get some sleep in. i am so tired its crazy.
oh! also, i drank almost two liters of diet coke today...
can you be addicted to something like that?
...
anywho, i feel gross. i do not want anything to do with diet coke for a long time now.
hah.

hope you're doing well. cause im really happy for once.
:)
also! my burns are officially healed. damn. that took so long.