im not there yet. but im closer than i was yesterday.

new start. fuck yeah.

today was not by any means good. because as you know sundays are breakfast at my dads. but today surely was not that bad. so that just means things will only get better from here! :D

im really optimistic today. feeling good.
oh! also shit my brains out this morning. i took 7 lax before bed. cause three is reccomened and five never works. so i took seven. and it worked really well. then i felt really really sick and dry heaved for a very long time. then my stomach hurt so goddamn much. so i went back to bed. on the bright side i was 127 after all that shitting. so this is good.

i need to shower. but its too late for that.
im going to the mall tomorrow. i have no money. which is depressing. but hey. its okay. the mall is fun.

im getting a Y membership for march. im gonna go all the time.
my goal is 118 by the end of march. i got this!

tomorrow im staring ABC. this will be good, i promise.

thanks for always being there for me.
i'll stay here for a while. post regularly and read your girls' blogs. :) it really is inspiring.

random thin ladies.







edittt:

i texted tyler one last time. im so scared for the reply. i figured we dont have a friend ship in jeopardy, and i need to stop hoping. so i need to know.
i said "hey tyler. i like you, and i shouldnt, cause i know you dont like me. so could you tell me honestly, that theres no point in me hoping you'll like me"
and he said "thats sweet of you. but im really sorry, i love morgan" and i said "thats fine" and he said "okay goodnight"

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