Thursday, November 25, 2010

damn.

i ate today. a lot. i havent totaled it yet though. im afraid to. i did so well the past two days. but i guess the good thing is, i dont think i've ever felt this way before. like, so guilty of eating, and i just want to feel hungry again. i think i might exercise again in a bit. which is a big deal, because i fucking hate exercising. i was 124.5 this morning. is it normal to have your weight fluctuate that much? or not? because yesterday i was 123. i dont know. i could have cried.
so today i had cereal, and potato salad, and noodle salad, 6 vegetarian chicken nuggets, stuffing, and pumpkin pie. lets over estimate here.
cereal (120)
potato salad (400)- it had mayonnaise in it.
noodle salad (250)
nuggets (285)
stuffing (140)
pumpkin pie (300)
that means i fucking ate 1495 calories today!
fuckkkkk. fuck fuck fuck!
i bet i'll be like 126 tomorrow. fuck fuck fuck!!
this morning i burnt 200 calories. so that means net total of 1295. fuckkfuckfuck.
if i exercise again, it'll probably burn 200 tops. which means i'll still be in the thousands. i dont know what to do.
i hope you girls did better than me.

well, i took a picture of me laying down today. and laying down is a flattering position. so idk. but here it is.

i have a huge rib cage. god.
fuck. fuck.
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4 comments:

  1. UnknownThu Nov 25, 10:33:00 PM

    you look great. ribs and hipbones staring at me!
    technically you havnt eaten enough to gain. if you do gain it will be water weight or something annoying like that. getting your period might be a reason for gaining. stay safe. xo

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  2. amyThu Nov 25, 11:03:00 PM

    you look AWESOME. really. such a thinspiring pic.
    and dw that is considered a 'normal' intake so hopefully it won't do too much damage. stay strong hun x

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  3. KittyFri Nov 26, 03:32:00 PM

    You look freain' amazing. You should be proud of your progress, no matter how long it takes. :]
    Don't beat yourself up so much!

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  4. LichenSun Nov 28, 01:03:00 AM

    Holy hipbones, Batman! Looking at the creases in your bra, you might even need to go down in chest measurement (not necessarily cup size).

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