today wasnt much better. 900.
i havent exercised yet. i cant seem to get off my lazy ass. fuck fuck fuck.
today was nice other wise. i dont have many friends, but i got invited to go play lazer tag, and then go to dinner. ate about 475 at dinner. not too horrible.
then i got invited to another friends house to play my favorite game in the world, Legends of Zelda Twilight Princess for Wii. it was so nice.
but i feel so goddamn fat. why cant i be thin? why cant this be easy?
im not going to be 120 in four days.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
i was just 123. just! come onnn! i was so close.
this isnt possible now. its not.
im going to take some lax tonight. i know it'll sort of be like fake weight loss. but still.
it'll make me feel better. less bingy and angry.
i want to have sex with Gerard Way and Frank Iero. im so serious. not some fan girl crush. i need to have sex with them before i die. its a goal. i need to, or i wont die happy.
could that happen? do you think? they are both famous, and from MCR, they both have a wife and kids. buttttt, when i turn 18, if im hot, and if i seduce them, do you think they would? it could be our dirty little secret. i mean i'd tell like everyone. lol. but still. i feel like its possible.
is this a false hope? because i dont think it is. so i need someone to tell me the truth. do you think Frank and Gerard of My Chemical Romance on separate, or not, occasions, would have sex with a skinny beautiful 18 year old? Frank is 29, and Gerard is 33. Frank is 13 years older than me, and Gerard is 17 years older than me. so in two years, possibly, or later maybe, when Frank is 31 and Gerard is 35, do you think i could fuck them?
i hope so.
i can wait. i will wait. i'll do them in their 40's. im serious. i just need to do them. preferably in their prime, but i can take doing a 45 year old when im 28. and i can also do a 41 year old. i will. i can.
sorry. that was very long. and unneeded. but im serious! so serious! i'll love them even when they're old! lol
have a nice night.
the boys now. this is what im talking about. hell yesss.
2010 frank. :) hes getting old. lol
2010 gerard. he dyed his hair red. hes hot.
old frankie. hes a baby. :)
old frank and gerard. frank has a mustach. lol
see what i mean. especially the first picture. i will do them. dont worry.
Hahaha. I totally know those feelings. There are some pretty sexy people all out there, ones in which I'd looove to fuck. Anything is possible, I guess, if you put your mind to it. I mean, look where all of these skinny, wonderful people got to, with a little hope? :]
ReplyDeleteDon't beat yourself up too much. It probably is just water weight from eating. If you go for a while without food, and then eat lots of food at once, you gain a decent amount of water weight. You probably feel squishy and bloated because of that, but I can assure you that it'll go away. If you eat small, regular meals and drink lots of water, it goes away. You can still keep your calories down. Eat like fruits and veggies multiple times a day.
You have no idea how happy those pictures of Gerard and Frankie made me. They are my favorites ;] Ill help you get them in bed, cause sleeping with them is also one of my life goals hahahaha. and we are NOT Fan-girls...just Avid Admirers who respect their talent and their sexy sexy bodies haha <33
ReplyDeleteHahahahah that's adorable. They would do you in a second. DON"T GET DISCOURAGED about the couple pounds! You'll drop them so easily!! Xoxo
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