ahhh.
its been a while. hello 111 followers. that must be good luck, huh?
130 ish pounds. i havent really given an effort i can say honestly was my best.
went to a cain & abel show. i talked to tyler for the first time in a verrry longgg time.
during the show he honestly seemed to be favoring the side of the stage i was on. he kept getting mega close. and screaming real near me. he even was right in front of me, and he stepped on my toes. he never once made eye contact though. then after the show i said "hey. tyler" and he turned around and looked at me and i said "good show tonight. :)" and then he gave me the cutest smile i've ever seen and he said "thanks. :)" thats it. thats all we said. later i texted him asking an honest question. "what did your tattoos say again?" cause they're in a different language on each side of his ribs. he replied "Go with God" and "See God in me" then i was like "okay. :) i couldnt remember. thats really cool though. :D" and he was all "mhhhmmm. thanks!!"
i hope we can be friends. maybe were mending a friendship here. that'd be wonderful. his girlfriend was at the show. she wasnt up front like i was. she was sitting in the chairs in the back. and they didnt even seem like they were all lovey together. i dunno.
im fat. i got a new suit for lifeguard training which starts again in april. and i put it on, and it felt like it fit real well. but when i looked in the mirror i nearly cried. i have these newly obtained love handles and a belly. oh my god. so i kept the suit on, and i exercised wearing it seeing all the fat jiggle. ew. this week will be good. i need to be AT LEAST 124 for this suit to even look ALRIGHT so im aiming for 124.
i'd say since im around 130 i want 127 by wednesday, then 125 by friday. if i do awesome i can see that happening. and my period will be over soon, so this could work. 125 by friday. thats like five pounds give or take what i actually am today.
much love to you girls. i gotta go.
dude its raining so much its fucking crazy.
I'm sure you look lovely in the suit. I hope you reach your weight loss goals.
ReplyDeletei bought a new swimsuit too&it's fantastic because it makes me want to never eat again while wearing it. i might turn into a crazy girl&wear it under my clothes. if i do, please let me know i've gone loony. cheers for friendship mending&for 111 followers. maybe it is good luck. stay strong, darling. you'll be 124 in no time.
ReplyDeletexoxo
zette
i dare not see myself in swimsuit ugh, such harsh reality. good luck on 124
ReplyDeleteraaaaaain! that sucks. i'm remembering the rain spell we had. AWFUL.
ReplyDeleteyou're totally mending your friendship with him! i'm so excited! and it's cool that his gf was in the back being a creeper while you were all cute and AWESOME. i think the ball's in your court :) JUST PLAY IT COOL :D
i exercise in clothes that are too small too. psh, suck that we have to do that. but you'll be back down soon, and i'll be lower soon and the world will be rainbows and unicorn farts.
i don't wanna buy a swimsuit any time soon :/
you're doing fantastic, but we're kicking it up this week.
good luck, pretty girl!
xoxo
You will be 124 in no time :) good luck!
ReplyDeleteStay strong,
Lottie x