im sore

my bones are sore today. all i want to do is sleep. and i did, until like 1 oclock pm. its almost 4 pm now and i havent eaten all day. i feel good. :)
not sure how much i weigh. i'll do it soon, or maybe tomorrow.
im going to this festival in town tonight. there will be food. but hopefully i can get out of eating.
not much went on today.
i could still use a nap though.

thats it really.
see yah guys tomorrow. :)

all in good fun.

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food is dumb.

it really is. its been bothering me so much the way food controls my life. gahhh.

i did bad today. no binges, just tons of food.
had half a doughnut.
handful of cereal.
exercised.
2 baked potatoes. -threw up
some chips. -threw up
veggie patty.-threw up
small bowl of ice cream. -threw up
two veggie B.L.T's.
half a bag of popcorn.
crackers.

gahhhh.

i dont know. i have no excuses. and im 128 today. shit. i need to get it together.
buttttttt, i finally got my new computer! im on it now! yes! :D
so i can save some thinspo now!

i need some motivation to get back on track.
any suggestions?

im full

my stomach, is full, of food. wow. usually when im "full" its like a sickly full feeling after a binge. and then its guilty. but i did pretty well today, or at least i dont feel like i failed. and my family decided to go to jimmy johns. ive never been there before. so i decided to see what they had. ive been a vegetarian for 6 years, so i was trilled that they had an avacado and sprout sub. i got one, the small one, with no cheese. i also got a big pickle and a diet coke. and i ate it all. and i enjoyed every bite. which brings me to the title of this post. i am full. a wonderful not guilty full. i feel, normal actually. like there was never an issue with food.

well, i just thought id share my day. :)

today was very pleasnt.

see yah.

today

well, today was crap.
movie day with my guy. popcorn, chips, soda.
damn.
i dont think i'll weigh myself tomorrow though, i dont want to be disappointed.
i went swimming a lot today. but today wasnt a specific exercise day. sooo, thats about it.
i did get a tan though. :)

so my friends over.
tomorrow will be better.
i appreciate all of your comments! love you girls so much!
:D
till tomorrow.

EDIT: me today tanning (in undies. lol)


look at the cellulite on my inner thighs. icky.

POSTPOSTPOST

so its almost 2 am. and i cant sleep.
so i figured i'd kill some time here.
i have a BMI of 20.8, underweight is 18.5 right?
kay, so with my height i'd have to be 111 pounds to be underweight. :D
haha, sorry that excites me. so this means if i lose 14 pounds i'll be underweight.thats sorta a long way, but i started at 142 and now im 125, so i lost 17 pounds already, i can do it! eventually, that is.

i found a super awesome quote, that i wanted to share with you guys, but alas! i forgot. :P
so if i remember i'll be sure to let yah know.
now its gonna piss me off that i cant remember. haha. :)


is anyone a neat freak aside from me? actually im not a neat freak about anything, except organizing shit. i have so many notebooks. i actually have 3 ana notebooks, two of which are on me at all times in my bag.
:sorta random side note: i feel compelled to call it a "bag" since my boyfriend made fun of me for calling it a "purse". haha. how dumb.

so i asked yahoo answers, because you know how trustworthy that is, how much they think a girl should weigh to wear a bikini (because now im all stressing out about wearing my new one). and i came across this picture of a girl who was asking the same question as me. she posted a pic (which i'll share with you below) and that she's 14 and weighs 140 pounds. all the advice to her is like "yes you look great!", she is going to have a tough life if no one can be truthful to her. i dont think i ever looked this bad. at least i hope not. actually i have a "before" picture of me some where. i'll find it for another post some time. so below is that girl. you guys think shes too big for a bikini too, right?
anywho, i think im done here. im gonna go try to sleep. :)
good night you sexy mexies!

(haha. i called my boyfriend that once, and he was like, "annie... what is a 'mexy'?" he thought i was being rude or something)

ew ew ewwwww!

i tried so hard, i did! but i couldnt do it! ickyyy!
i tried so hard to do the salt water flush. but i could NOT stomach drinking all that water.
nastyyyyy!!! i got like a fourth through all the water and i just couldnt do it.
so now my stomach is full of salt water. so i'll probably be bloated tomorrow.
damn, i bet that shit works if you can drink all of it.
but ahhhhh, like a quart of water. nastyyyyyy.
haha, sorry for that rant, it was just so gross.


i did alright today food wise. probably close to 1,000 though.
idk.
but im still 125, so all is good. :)

has anyone else done the salt water flush? any advice? because i would LOVE to complete it!
haha.

thats about all i have to say. see yah guys tomorrow. :D