long time no see

so its been a while. and im doing terrible.
it was just day after day of binge binge binge binge!
i actually hit 131.5.
wtf?
how did i let it get that bad?
god.
today i was 128.
but i feel big. like last time i was 128 it was okay. i felt confident i could get thinner, i just feel huge. my stomach looks big, my thighs touch. i am fat.
im so discouraged.
well, im going to try to do better. about 10 days left of school. then its summer. and i need to be 123-125. so, i'll do better i promise!
i promise all of you, and my self.


gahh. tomorrow is a new day though.
today was like 1000 caloires. :(