i put on a pair of jeans that i usually wear, and i couldnt get them up.
holy fuck.
this is out of control. im like opposite of ana. seriously. i have like a binge/over eating disorder. i cant stop. i dont know what to do. i honestly have to be at like 135. oh fuck. oh fuck. ohhhh mother of fuck.
aside from being the fattest person ever, tomorrow is the My Chemical Romance concert. im flipping out!!! i could cry im so exciteddd! my favorite person in the world is Frank Iero. the guitarist of MCR. and holy shit. im gonna be front row. fronttt rowww. and im going to get to see him in person. i just might cry.
i was suppposed to be 118 for this concert. i was around 124 when i made that goal. wow. i really took that in the opposite direction... hard core. damn.
tell me what to do. i cant fucking be fat anymore. i honestly hate myself so much. i dont remember how to do this. please. tell me what i should do. please.
i need to study. i have three huge tests tomorrow. i want you all to have a good night.
you all deserve to be thin. i love you.
Start slowly again. Instead of bingeing on sweets, binge on fruits and veggies. Oranges are good because they're super sweet and filling. Drink lots and lots and lots of water, and plan out everything you want to eat for the day before you ever leave your room in the morning. Write down everything you eat. EVERYTHING. Even if it's just one potato chip. Remember, just one french onion Sun Chip has 10 calories, and they're some of the "good" crisps. Don't be too hard on yourself, but punish yourself (like with fasting or super-intense excerise) when necessary.
ReplyDeleteI hope that helps you out some.. You deserve to be thin, too. Calm down, drink some tea, and just get your head back in the game. You can do this <3
tea, coffee, tea, coffee, tea, coffee, tea, coffee, tea, coffee, tea, coffee, tea, coffee. calorie-free drinks and tofu. take your time to eat, do Not gobble. take deep breaths in between.
ReplyDeleteCOME ON BABE! YOU CAN DO IT!
and the only reason why im telling you that you can, is because i survived the phase youre currently in.. regaining my posture again. you wanna feel faint, lightheaded, and the only thing to let you pump your energy is the concert.. and i wanna tell you that... I LOVE FRANK IERO TOOOOOO!!! :O OMFG.
YOU LUCKY LUCKY LADY, I WANNA GO FOR MCR CONCERT TOO?! SHAREEEEEEEE THE LOVEEEEEEEE!!!!! gahhhh :(
I agree, slowly phase out. It will happen, just slowly start distinguishing between eating for hunger or from bordem, and then start stopping when your full and such. Or add exercise. Have so much fun at the concert darling!!
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