so its April. which means i can eat junk food again. and i've been doing bad again.
tomorrow i start swimming again in school. i do not want to. i am so fat. seriously. i will honestly embarrass myself. i just got home from school and weighed myself. 130.5
i've been in the 130's for a while now. god, i really took being 122 for granted. seriously. i am so upset.
i have a stye in my eye. it hurts so much.
i think i might take a bath. i need to shave my legs. but i hate being naked.
its almost a phobia. i hateeee being naked.
i havent eaten yet today. thats usually how my days start. then i binge hardcore. yeah. i fucking suck.
my moms back in jail.
my boyfriend dom doesnt want to be with me anymore.
my sister tried to commit suicide.
my body hates me.
my life sucks.
i am sad.
im sorry i havent been updating lately. i just dont know what to do with my time. i waste so much of it. fuck.
i want to sleep.
we started the poetry unit in school. i am really excited actually. i used to write poetry all the time. i think i may start again. that'd be a nice out lit.
thats fine for now.
thanks for sticking with me. i appreciate it more than you know. and your comments mean so much to me. :)