body issues

so my hate for my body is getting in the way of being with my boy. it upsets him when i dont eat lunch. when i dont wanna get naked to mess around. and his favorite postion is girl on top, and i cant do that for him. its too exposing. i dont know what to do. i guess get in shape. but even that wont fix my confidence level.

rugby starts real soon im excited. still havent started working out really. but its really because im so busy. i work so often and for such long periods and then i have home work, im just so run down.

i got 10 pills of adderal from this kid at school. they're fucking awesome. i wishhhh i had a perscription. they focus my mind, and make me happier, and make me not wanna eat. perfect combo! haha

ive been geting crazzzyy headaches. not sure what from exactly. i think im gonna get my glasses perscription rechecked, that could be why.

anyways im gonna try to sleep. i work tomorrow for about 6 hours right after i finish with my 8 hours of school. ugh. catch up soon. and im trying to make more time for blogging. love you girls :) talk to you soon hopefully.