crazy makes you crazy

heyy ladiess.

not much is new, or has changed. i have snake bites now though. so thats always fun. hah.
i wasted like an hour of my life today watching maroon 5 videos on youtube. and like every video is very sexual. its awesome. and i have to say the lead singer Adam, is like one of the sexiest men alive. just puttin' that out there. but on the down side. now im all horny, and i've got no one to have sex withhhh. ughhh. so thats like the shittiest thing ever.

i showered today so well that i feel like i havent been this clean in years. lol. like i exfoliated my skin and shaved then after wards i put lotion on, and now im feelin' clean and great. and i also smell nice. i wish i had someone to impress tonight. ugh.

i realized today that i would be pretty much 100% happy with my body, if i didnt have love handles. like thats it. i have a fine shaped body, and im not all that big, but its my goddamn love handles. i wish you could spot reduce fat. but you know, just working on my core in general will be good for me. especially since its been far too long since i've exercised.

i dont think i'll ever be thin. i seem to not be able to lose weight anymore. i used to be 122. come on! thats awesome. now im up here, 10 pounds heavier. ten fucking pounds. thats so many! damn! blah. but its not like im gonna give up. i just suck. ugh.


snakee bitesss. haha. :)


and this is after my shower. more of a progress picture, so that when i lose more weight i can compare.