its been a while!

im very sorry guys. i've just been so fucking depressed. only sleeping and eating. and the other day i flipped out, and i finally realized its about time to get back on track. i had sort of a wake up call. 130 pounds. waist 29 inches, hips 35 inches. fucking shit shit fuck fuck. so. i got this now. i cannot and will not be fat. i've eaten 90 calories today. a yogurt and a jello. and i already exercised. burned at least 200 calories. i can do this. i will do this.

i have not been reading blogs. im sorry. i'll catch up though! dont fret. :)
in factttt, i'll go do that now!