tomorrow is a new week

im gonna start 246, or what ever. i hope at least. i always end up binging. gah.
i dont really have much to say. 126.5 pounds this morning.
i've been happy. :)
i got some gum today. Extra came out with a new line of gum. "dessert delights". how cool! lol. they taste like desserts. :P
if they make like a chocolate flavored one, it'll be the best day ever.
its nearly 10. im going to bed very soon.
night ladies.
hope your doing well.

once

i messed up once, and my brain said "dont worry about it annie. just go ahead and eat all you want today"
i dont even have anything to say. and i spent so much time binging that i barley had time to do my home work, let alone get in a decent exercise. i did exercise, but not for more than 10 minutes. if that.

i dunno.

be mean to me. tell me im a failure. cause i know i am. so just remind me.

thanks.

too heavy, it doesnt make sense

so i knew i wouldnt be 123 today, because of the why i was so light and how i wasnt about to take more lax. lol. its okay that you guys laugh. i laugh now. but then i just wanted to cry.
but im mad. i dont understand why the scale said so much today. i just figured it was because i ate a sorta big dinner at like 9:45 pm. i know, i ate way too much, way too late. but i think it just wasnt digested by this morning.
my stomach is looking more toned though. my boyfriend said i look great, and that he'd like to see me naked more. :P
that makes me feel really good. saying my tummy looks good is like the best compliment. haha.
so today i ate more than i should have. i went to my boys house and his mom made brownies. and she was joking about how she never sees me eat, and how i must be anorexic. so i ate some brownies. i also had some tater tots. lol. they were so goooood. hah. so idk. maybe im around 800 calories? lets see... yeah. i'd say 800 or 900 calories. i've been busy, and the past two days i've only had time for 15 minutes of ab work. so i guess its okay if i dont lose, as long as my stomach looks nice.

this is me from yesterday. its sorta a weird angle. like my hips are toward the camera. idk. haha. excuses i guess.
i still have a little pooch at the bottom of my tummy. but im more toned. i actually showed my boy this picture and asked him what he thought. he asked to see my stomach in real life, and he was like "wow. you really are getting thin"
:D
excitement! ahha.
so please. 125 pounds tomorrow. cross your fingers!

oh mondays

so. today. im embarrassed to say, but i feel i should tell you, i literally pooped my pants today. in school (sorry if this is too much information). i took some lax yesterday at like 1pm. and today in first hour ( about 8 oclock), i couldnt hold it. and i pooped my pants. no one knew. not like it was loud. so i went to the bathroom and... well, wiped up. and i threw away my undies. which totally solved the problem. but all dayyyyyyyyyy i had the runs. it wasnt very nice.
so i came home and went right into the shower. and as im standing there naked i thought i'd weigh myself, even though i ate breakfast and lunch today. so, the scale said 123.5. AHHHH!! thats so exciting! but i think its due to, i have no more poop in me.... lol.
but still.
i dont think i'll be 123.5 tomorrow. just cause today i was like EMPTY. but regardless, i think i've finally broken through my plateau of 127 pounds. KNOCK ON WOOD.
im expecting like 125 tomorrow. which is good.
i just ate some soup and gold fish. so i total im at like 350 calories.
and i finally bought my Halloween costume. i dont have it yet, since i bought it online. but i bought it. :D im very excited. i got a medium, even though i thought i could fit a small. we'll see how it fits when i get it. :)

well, thats all ladies. i think i may take a nap.
thanks for the comments. i love you!
:)

before bed

heres what i look like today before i climb into bed.
excuse my big butt. lol. i never realized i had a huge booty until pictures with this type of view. lol.

massive binge + tons of lax = 125 pounds?

dont you just love math?

so i binged so hard yesterday. it was nasty actually. i mean the food was fantastic. but there wasnt a time yesterday that i was hungry. i just ate all day that i was full all day.
and i took a butt load of lax. and today im 125 pounds.
but i havent done so well today. so i dont think i'll stay 125 for long. but i didnt exercise yesterday. cause my boy slept over. but i will tonight. so maybe i will stay 125, or lower.
:)

my dad was supposed to take me to lunch. it would have been nice to spend time with him. but. he bailed on me. cause of "car troubles". but later i called my sister and she said her and my dad are shopping. so much for car troubles. idk.

its only like 1:30pm here.
im watching the food network.

i had the nicest lunch today. it was japanese noodles, with japanese seasoning. it was so gooooood. and only 200 calories. for how rich it was im glad it wasnt higher. :)

i painted my nails, and took a shower.
im very happy today. :)

the jeans im wearing today though make me feel fat. i think i'll put an pajama pants. yeah. that sounds nice. i'll probably go to bed really early. i got a new mattress, and its so nice. i also got a new sheet set, and i washed all my blankets. i cannot wait to treat myself to a long sleep. :)

thats about it. thanks for your comments girlies.
also i have 47 followers. thanks to all of you who are new. and for those of you who have been following me for a while. :)
love you guys.

so heres a picture of me from the other day.
my hair looks shitty here. its really short, and i had it tucked behind my ears. its not this ugly in real life, trust me. :P

but im starting to see my bones. :) im excited.

frisbee golf!

if thats even how you spell frisbee. lol.
it was fun. my boy surprised me with a game of frisbee golf in the park. it was so nice!
me and him played on a team, and his two friends played on another team. the game was so close! lol. i mean i dont know the actual rules but we did it by how many throws it took. and be freaking tied! 18 holes with a total of 84 throws each. lol. so a rematch is in order. :)

today was nice.
i realized, its been a like a nearly 9 days since i last pooped. i think im just constipated as fuck. so, i got some lax today. to unbind me. so i'll do that this weekend.

i got some nice metabolism boosting green tea today. it came in bottles. so i got 2. they were only like a dollar something each. i also bought my boy a strawberry fanta and im gonna surprise him and give it to him tomorrow so he can have it at lunch or what ever. :)
i love buying him things.
i mean i dont have a job. or tons of money. but it makes me happy to buy him things.

oh anddddd it was recently his birthday, and he turned 18. today was the first time we had sex since he turned 18. lol. and it was great. :D
hes a really silly guy. hes hardly serious, unless its like a serious situation.
so when he was finishing he was like "yes! im 18!!" lmao.

i love him. :D

so any who i took some stuff to help me sleep and im like, nodding in an out.
so i should hit the hay.

i'll talk to you guys tomorrow.

oh! and thanks for all the nice comments. your thoughts and suggestions are always appreciated. :)
have a nice night.