i dont want to

im so lazy. i havent exercised in 2 whole days. what ever i guess.
warped tour was so fucking awesome. just awesome. shit. got pictures and tons of signatures. so much fun!
i didnt have enough money to buy anything to eat. :P
bought too much band merch. :)
was awesome.

anyways. today is only day 2 of the ABC diet. yesterday was good. today i had one bowl of cereal. and then like 5 hours later had some cheetoes. so i dont even know. not more than 500, right?

we were going to get jimmy johns. so that would be like 350-400 calories. i know that would bring me over. so i dont know...


im going to try to do this. but i dont know. i dont like thinking im on a "diet". i dunno. but i saw on Kelly's Tri Thin blog, a losertown chart. so i went there. and if i cant do this ABC diet then i've decided i will exercise 3-5 days a week, and eat no more than 1,000 calories. :)

Day	Weight	Calories Used	Your Calorie Deficit
08/06/2010	123.37	2103.79	2102.79
08/13/2010	119.19	2074.37	2073.37
08/20/2010	115.07	2045.36	2044.36
08/27/2010	111	2016.75	2015.75
09/03/2010	107	1988.55	1987.55
09/10/2010	103.05	1960.74	1959.74

so i havent weighed my self in a long time. like 4 days. sooo, idk when i will. im scared.
and it has just been affirmed that we are going to jimmy johns. i am going to eat it. im so sorry girls. i dont feel too too bad though. because my thighs touch a lot less.


till tomorrow.

oh! and this is me and the lead singer of We The Kings!!! :D

it burns

one of the things that most upsets me about my body, is my arms.
i mean by now means are they nasty. but i hate them.
so i've been working really hard with weights to tone them up.
and i've already lost half an inch on them. so this is good.

i havent been eating very well. so tomorrow im going to try to follow the ABC diet. idk. even if i cant do it, at least it will get me back on track.

tomorrow im going to vans warped tour. and my limit for the day is 500 calories. hopefully all will go well. :)

im so effing tired.
maybe i'll have a salad and go to bed.

the worst i'll eat tonight will be subway. and since im a vegetarian the sub i get is only 430 calories. and thats for a foot long. which i usually dont finish.

hope you girls and doing well.
stay positive.
:D


my favorite thinspo is arms and collar bones.

so slow

my computer is so fucking slow. gahhh.
anyhow, i was 125 this morning. so idk.whatever, im trying not to stress too much.
ive been feeling really great lately. my jillian michael's dvds are awesome. honestly, you all should try them. i feel stronger, and within the like three days i've done them (56 minutes each) i've lost a whole inch off my thighs! as of right now, even if the space is teeny, my thighs do not touch! ahhh!
so i'm at about 600 calories right now. but i exercised so hard. so its minus the calories burned from that im down to like 300. anyways, we didnt get chinese yesterday. so thats good. i did have two bowls of cereal though.

i just had a huge bowl of soup. it was only 100 calories, but i did crush up tortilla chips and put them in it. so idk. im really full. gahhh.not icky or guilty full, just eah, full.

it hurts to blink. this morning i got woken up by my cat jumping on my face. it scared the shit outta me, and i like pushed her off, but she ended up scratching my eyelid. oucchhh. and its like ugly noticeable. haha.

so im having a girls night with my best friend. im bringing the movie the note book, it always makes me cry. i also promised her i'd bring chocolate chips and blueberries, so that we can make home made waffles. i dont feel like i'll snack too much tonight, im on better track now. but who knows.
well, im gonna go lay down, maybe take a nap. :)


stay strong ladies.
that last picture is one of my favorites.

hey beautiful!

so i now have 19 followers!
yay!!
thanks to all of you guys for the comments, and for reading what i have to say. :)

so today's intake was idk. not good. i didnt count. and i had 3 cookies today. so... not good.
but i did Jillian Michale's "Banish Fat, Boost Metabolism" and its so good! you burn any where from 400-500 calories! so im burning like 445 with every time i do it. :D and i totally love Jillian so it doesnt seem too bad to work out. :)
the thing says its a 40 minute work out. bullshit. with the warm up and the cool down its 56 minutes. i mean i dont mind, extra calories burned. but they cant call it a 40 minute work out if there's an extra 16 minutes.
anywho, today is the third day in a row of doing B.F.B.M. most people lose 5 pounds in the first week. that would be fantastic!!

so i measured myself today,
my hips are a little under 34 inches
my waist is a little over 26 inches
and my thighs are 21 inches around the biggest part.

by the time i go back to school i'd like to be more toned. i mean of course lower weight would be great, but my idk my weight seems to jump around soooo freaking much.

my family is getting chinese for dinner. i love rice. so idk how my life will go later.

till tomorrow.
:D

i just dont understand

i did good yesterday. and exercised hard. and i was 124.5.
but today. today im 128. i dont get it! (could it be cause im constipated? i hope so)

but seriously. today i had a bowl of cereal! no way i gained like 4 pounds from that!
goddammit.
i dont even know what to say.
why cant i stay low in pounds.
please someone explain to me why.

im so upset.

compare

im embarrassed, and proud of how far i've come.
so i though i'd show you my progress thus far.
the one on the left is recent, 127.5 pounds. the one on the right is 145 pounds. :/i understand how big i was.

the biggest change is in my tummy, and legs.







EDITTTT:
i just took a pic of me now. 124.5 pounds. i guess not too too much different. but im so excited. :D

and today i got Jillian Michaels "banish fat boost metabolism" and damn did that kick my ass. :)

a new day

so yesterday i did end up eating, probably like 800-900 calories. nothing too bad though. so i came home pretty late and just went to bed. this morning i slept till 12:30 in the afternoon. and i got up, went to the bathroom and then weighed my self. 124.5.
im so excited! :D

still havent eaten anything.
probably eventually will.
idk. its really early.
maybe i'll update you guys later.

thats all for now.

stay inspired.